The shower.....

The Incident while playing a Hide and Seek game had now sown a seed of fear in my heart but on the other hand after watching a hard penis so big in size made me curious and I started exploring my penis now wondered why is it so small...but slowly and gradually I forgot the incident and was now busy with my studies whole day and staying back home watching tv shows alone.
But then one day due to some communal riots in our city we had to change our house and move to a safer part of the city where all my relatives stayed together in a big house to feel safe together. We were 18 people which included my six cousins (four boys and two girls). We played whole day inside the house and were not allowed to even peep out of the house as there was still lot of tension outside. I enjoyed the company of my cousins and felt safe and secured in their company. The boys would play the whole day together, sleep together in the same room and even took bath together. My cousins always took bath without their underwear's but since I was shy I didn't take off my underwear. Now once again the curiosity aroused when I saw that my eldest cousin had a very big penis, I was busy comparing my penis with all of my cousins but got disheartened when I realized that mine was the smallest but on the other hand didn't realize that I was the youngest too. one night when we went to sleep I was sleeping next to my eldest cousin and I was quiet nervous but I dared to ask him that bro. why is it that my penis is so small and yours so big, my face got red with embarrassment when he burst a laugh and kept on laughing for long but then realized that I was feeling bad so he stopped and tried to explain to me that as we grow up our penis also grows big and he also assured me that as I will grow of his age my penis will also grow bigger. I felt quiet satisfied with his answer and was now more friendly and frank with him. Next morning while we were taking bath my eldest cousin noticed me starring at his penis, he asked me to take off my underwear I refused but they all caught me and pulled down my underwear and said from today you will also take bath like this. Raj my eldest cousin were now alone in the bathroom while my other two cousins left, Raj said "why do you stare at my penis" I got nervous and said no I didn't he said he has been noticing me doing it since so many days. I told him that I was curious about the size the other night I told you, Raj said he was drunk so he doesn't remember. He asked me "khada hota hai tera ki abhi nahi shuroo hua (do you get erections or still not) I said I dont know what does that mean, he laughed and said don't pretend so innocent I said I swear I dont know Raj said ok I will show you what does erection means.. he caught his penis in his hand and started moving it up and down slowly he kept on doing it but I could see no change in his size...he said sala aise nahi khada hoga9it won't happen like this), and came close to me and said chal tu isay haath mein le( take it in your hand) I refused, he came more close to me and now was touching my body with his hands and pressing his penis over me, I said this is wrong stay back to me but he had now gone wild and said dont you want to see what is erection, i said no let me go but he didnt move back and turned on the shower so that nobody hears our talk outside...he was now kissingme from behind on my neck and pressing his penis over my ass I started feeling his penis getting harder and could feel it rubbing over me. Raj kept on kissing me all over and caught my penis with his hand and started flipping it up and down but nothing happened to my penis and I wasnt enjoying it too, I tried to free myself but raj was very strong and well built he turned me and said "dekho mera lund khada ho gaya hai(see my penis is hard now). Seeing his big 8" long penis freshened the incident of hide and seek. I was more sad that I am not even safe between my cousins and they also want to use my body to quench their lust......what to do? whom to trust? 

GAY is better than being BI.....Story of an Indian Bisexual Guy

Hi Friends
I'm 37 year old Indian guy, some of you might be younger to me and some older or equal my age but you are reading this blog depicts your interest in the God's unique creation being GAY or BI.
All these 37 years have been so challenging and hard to survive for me, may it be my childhood, my teenage or my present I have suffered the abuse for something that I wasn't responsible for.
My childhood from where I remember was full of sexual acts with friends, neighbors and cousins but all were females which proved that I was NOT A BORN GAY. I was caught playing on bed with my cousin Sis, which was just a childhood game but involved fondling and biting, I was surprised and confused why my mom scolded me and punished me for just playing with my cousin. School friends were just behaving sexually with me some would kiss me, some would press my penis and laugh while I cried like a timid boy.
I grew up as a confused little boy who started to hide behind sexual emotions, avoided making friends with a fear they would press my weenie and it would pain throughout the class, this once again proved that I was NOT A BORN GAY.
The first Encounter
I was eight when I first encountered a hard thing that I was sitting on and was just not aware of the situation. It was summer vacation time and we played the whole day in an under construction house next door which was vacant and the construction work was stopped for two months due to heat. we often played hide and seek game which was my favourite, I was wearing shorts and a sleeveless T-shirt that day and my friends commented that I was looking very sexy and chikna (smoothy). The game started with few of us and then later two boys Rahul and Ashwani, who were about 17 or 18 year old joined us, during the play I was searching a place to hide and suddenly I saw Rahul hiding inside a small area under the stairs, he saw me searching for a place and  asked me to hide with him but there was hardly any place for me to sit so he made me sit on his lap, like an obedient boy I sat on his lap, I was trying to figure out if someone is coming to catch us out, but Rahul was enjoying me sitting on his Crotch, suddenly Ashwani who was the den saw us from a distance and started laughing and commenting to his friend for what he was doing with me and Rahul signaled      him to leave us alone, Ashwani went away and now Rahul was trying to make me sit comfortably I was still not aware of his intentions but suddenly I could feel something hard pressing against my ass, and Rahul was trying to move his hands over my thighs I felt bit uncomfortable and tried to move away he pulled me back with a jerk and again made me sit on his crotch I tried my best to move away but he was very strong and well built and I was just a timid boy. I got very scared now that I was in trouble, now Rahul started kissing me from behind and moved his hands more fast over my thighs and inside my t-shirt, I started crying but Rahul put his hand on my mouth and said he will let me go if I hold his Hard thing in my hand for five minutes, saying this he took his penis and was laughing wickedly I said no and with a jerk I freed myself from his hands and ran as fast as I could, all I could hear from behind was "Don't tell anyone otherwise I will beat you badly". I ran back to home and hid under the bed for long time crying and scared of the beating I would get if I  told my mom about it.